"I had a lot of bad dreams. Dreams are easy to forget, and I don't remember the ones I had. So I thought the moment of wakefulness would go away, but it didn't. It was still there, deep down.
I don't know how to describe it, and can't see what it is, but only... an indescribable emotion. Like falling from the high, failed to struggle. But feeling released, and suddenly sinking to the bottom of the sea, suffocating.
It's like a nightmare. I don't know what to do. Either opening the wound and feeling the pain, or watching the pain heal. I don't want to do this anymore... Please, somebody, help me."